humm.. him, me ,zhen,jun,chu ping and jin yu went out yesterday..
We did not manage to see the fireworks coz we waited for a long long time and i guess eveything was a falsed alarm
I was pretty upset coz no matter what i realise one thing..
its all fate.. all that don't belongs to me will not be mine coz it will be gone even if i hold on to it.. no matter what.. i admit i was disappointed that night
So when we were walking back to the mrt station heading for home i did not realised i was walking beri fast till he hold me to stop me.. but i only realise i was damn silent and looking into shops aimlessly...
HUmm.. coz its like every single thing i wanan do with him is always being destroyed.. trip to kusu when we reach there, the boat just left.. fireworks.. forget it..
zhen thought i was angry with her and chu ping and jin yu also.. but dun worry la i am just hating myself to let everyone just wait like a idiot there to see nth but river... diaoz
Me and my stupid idea of asking ppl out to watch fireworks
I thought of watching with him but he gave it up too in the end thats why i was kinda disappointed with him.. thats why i ignored him totally though he was toking to me beside me..
Till he know one place will make me feel better.. so he brought me to walk to raffles place.. the place we have lots of mamories... on the whole way he tried to console me .. blah blah blah.. haiz.. but nth can just erased the things in my mind.. maybe him and her is more fated to be together i guessed...
Anyway nvm abt it .. its over .. no point being stubbon over things that had no point even if i really wished it to hapen..
Somehow ... no point watching it again.... i will neber feel the same again.. he just dun understand it
The bridge, the river,fireworks
And so wad if he replace the ring.. it will neber be the same ring again.. every time we quarrel he will just say treat it as thats the old me.. then u have thrown me..the bad him away...
But things dun always get to be replaced....
He just dun understand... for him maybe in the past she can replaced me easily and now i can replace her in his heart easily again... someone else may just replace me again isn't
The things around us may seems to be the same but he dun understand.. even i have changed....try looking at everything again.. everything has changed...
No matter what that once belong to u and me.. no longer is there.. trust.. its forgotten
Live in my life...
Sometimes me myself will also feel confused... wth am i thinking
Why can't i just forget abt me and u.. and just move on
Why do i have to cling on someone that was once unfaithful to me...
Why am i here again...!!!
Why i like him more then they do... why can;t i just ignore him and dun even be bother by him anymore
this is more than i can take...
How am i supposed to feel.. there is so much running through my mind
First u wanan be free now u say u need me
I can't keep goin back to the start everytime u whisper sth sweet in my ears
I dunno what i want to do.. because my feelings are mixed...
I dun even know why i like him... hahaz
Anyway time to rest le... buaiz buaiz
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!