Hi .. todae i went to linh hse after school.. after celebrating qi we de birthday.. and today's lian wei de birthday also anyway to the both of them HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! *smile*.. yi jie and the rest got a cake for qi wei so we sang the birthday song for him and ate the delicious cake.. i guessed qi wei is beri happy coz someone is there ..lolx.. okay so now comes to me at linh's hse..
Her aunt treat me lunch coz she cooked mi hun gui.... it was nice thanks!!! hehez.. then me and linh chatted till two plus b4 i head for school again to buy the chinese electonic dictionary for my o'levels..
I went to withdraw some money and guessed wad.. mr low was behind me .. diaoz.. lolx.. luckily i am beri good de lor.. i neber tuck out shirt.. and guess my hair still acceptable then socks still not too short so .. he did not say anything but just smile and nodded his head .. hehe
So.. i got my dictionary then i went home to change so i can meet Zhen..
Me and zhen bought some stuffs to eat and drink while we walked to NP.. then we chatted and chatted till we reach my dad's shop.. i even helped her to massage hehe.. not bad huh hehe.. must be comfortable .. hehe .. lolx
So after a while me and her walk to xin de hse.. zhen accpompany to xin's life there then she went home... thanks hehe.. and we did had a great time chatting
Now comes to xin... me , linh and min all went to visit her just now at 7 plus...
we really miss u my darlin!! we missed the laughters and the jokes and your hohohoho laughter lolx.. guessed min and linh will noe wad i am toking abt lolx..
So over at xin;s hse we like four crazy woman do crazy stuffs there.. like wad we always do.. we dance.. we sing.. we laugh.. we joke around.. we listen to music.. play com.. lie on the bed together to relax and chat abt our character blah blah blah.. actually there is a moment i feel like i am so fortunate to have them.. and xin also felt that way ..guessed she is kinda touched..hehe...
The four of us.. together again .. its been some time since we four sit together and chat like that... laughing..having fun... i love them!!! ... really... and there is a moment we all felt.. wad will happen if we live together.. and became kinda silent when we talk abt how will life be like after we leave school.. coz time really flies...
Xin say coz of her eye infection.. she gave us a chance to be together again .. to all relax and chat abt xin shi.. coz we are usually beri busy coz of school work and tests so we did not really meet up for a beri beri beri long time le .. i mean after school... thats why she say her eye is zhi de one.. to be liek that but hey gerl dun feel that way must get well soon.. and dun be too worry.. we will always be there for u worx.. hehe...
Monday xin coming back to school le.. sh emissed one wk of lesson and we missed her for a week le .. xin faster come back leh
And we four even looked at the photos of us a beri beri long time ago when we were in sec ones.. i feel like laughing to see xin de hair.. the wu zi tou lolx... min also laughed too.. linh also.. it seems so cosy and happie to be with them looking back into the past... our past's neoprints that xin kept... ... the time where i was neber troubled by anyone and abt relationships.. the time i was in a relationship and the time we broke up as well as after me and him start afresh...i looked so different.. in the past my smile is true from my heart.. for now.. i am not sure..
Somehow i hate guessing games...
But when i tried to let go of u or rather to ask u to getaway from me to stop causing my heart so much misery.. i will remember times and days without u.. i dunnno what i shld do and where i shld go coz i noe i will just be lost when u're not around.. i just cannot let u go.. the second time.... thats why i will reconsider.. and realise i just will... neber get over u somehow.. coz i will still miss you no matter what.. we have been through too much things.. ups and down.. ppl gossiping us and hoping we will break up..( i guessed the people may also be reading my bloggie to wanna noe when we will break rite... so i dun need to mention the names) actually i noe i am being kinda sacastic but thats how i feel.. coz neber try to change my decision and feelings.. i have my own stand and thoughts its none of ur business of who i shld choose and of who i am with ... coz no one asked for ur comments that seems to be biased... and just shut up la okay.. mind ur own business and if u got nth better else to do... also no need to be bothered abt out relationships.. coz u noe what.. i will just follow wad my heart says.. dun try to swing my feelings.. GETAWAY.... coz u are nth better.. unfaithful.. so please think of urself ..ur own character before u comment on others.. but we do have people supporting us ... but sly teachers and negative comments that seems to be caused in the past by ur rank.. abt us...
But no matter what i noe i demand too much becoz i hope he can understand me... guessed no one wil ever understand each other too well .. even for best friends.. haiz... but the truth is the one thing i am scared of is losing hold of u... from the bottom of my heart.. so i will not let go that easily... unless till the day i have to leave u. then i will leave silently.. that doesn;t mean memories will be erased..
Why is everything so hard....
If only everything seems so simple..
Which is impossible..
But one thing... no matter what.. i will keep my promise... the one i made to myself at the memorial .. as well as the place u made them too...
I really hope that someday u can really try to understand my feelings and thoughts... and to know wad i wanna... without me having to hint u or tell u.. coz ppl do get tired of quarrels because of misunderstandings..
U say b4 u hope the one u love to be free like water.. but u noe to a gerl it means insecurity.. i noe u treat me well ..and is willing to give in at times and to sacrifice ur time to help me and ect ect.. but wad a gerl needs is not a i love u everyday.. even raymond noe hows to say it.. its ur actions.. love is not abt messaging a i miss u and i love u message.. its not abt that ... i dunno how i shld phrase it ... but i just feel that maybe we are really too young for a serious relationship.. nth last forever.. u shld noe it by now...
Just hoping.. maybe someday i will find someone hu understands me well... will it be you..?.. i hope so.. but it all depends on you...
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!