Yesterday we went to get our prizes..
I saw my higher chinese teacher there and he talked to madam lim then i was sort of being criticised for not attening hmt lessons.. but i can swear i really dunno when to go back to class ... jaime also dunno thats why we did not go.. not that we did it on purpose ..
Anyway we got third and i was pretty happie..
We went to jurong for the prize giving and then to amk for another event at night.. thats why i went to my mac.. saw her ..
Somehow at times i do feel inferior...
But the greatest difference between me and her is that i am neber unfaithful..like i say before....
But she got the qualities to ditch people so no comments...
Linh message me todae to ask abt why i look so down yesterday.. thanks linh.. min too .. and xin.. and not forgetting zhen.. wei xiong everyone else.. i realise there are a lot of people around me who cares for me..Thanks!! muacks hahaz..
Actually its just me being paranoid.. i keep thinking too much..
Nothing much happen to me and him.. i did told him abt my thoughts but in the end .. we are still happy to be have each other...l.. me and him went to clarke quay and i told him abt how i felt... while he told me about his ring... i am really quite touched to know that he actualy mended the ring.. he cherished it...
He's answer is he will say no to my idea of ending everything
My answer is....
I will not make the same mistakes as you did. i will not myself cause my heart so much misery.. i will not break the way you did ... you fell so hard.. you neber thought of anyone else you just saw your own pain in the past and so do i.. but now i learnt to understand people more.... though i am still the stubbon yew zhen hahaz..... i still cry in the middle of the night for the same damn thing...whenever i find myself in this situation .. all i know is that you're not here.. when you're here.. is not that i scared you will laugh at me is that i dun wish to cry infront of you.. to see my weaknessess..
Because of you .. i tried my hardest just to forget everything... i will... to forget the days i worked.. the reason i work..and forget of some hypocrites there... i just wanna go back to the life i used to lead.. i dun have to guess who is true to me... who is not.. with my true friends and people i love..because working life is complicated... people wears a mask.. i know jun liang may be reading this right hahaz.. but thats really how i feel..i not saying you la hahaz... people smile to you but u neber know when they are just making use of you...
And most of the guys just see cute and pretty gerls and they will go and woo them when they dun even understand them... they dun even look into the mirror to reflect on themselves.. people kept critising each other without looking at their own imperfection.. and gerls flirting any good looking guys that are around... well like i said its complicated... collegues even smoke and act like bengs and lians when they are not... they think thats cool but that makes me wanna puke... me and my friends hate ppl to smoke and fight.. for no reason.. it only destroy your own image.. especially for gerls.. anyway.. never mind abt it coz i told lisan i gonna quit...
Its my final choice.. coz i just dun like to be there somehow... i like thompson more.. with kim around.. with jaime .. terence, peter... at least they are not hypocrites...
But terence coming to amk le.. he is a good crew leader... not bad hahaz.. just wanna wish him goodluck bahz.. maybe someday he can become a manager too lolx...
Anyway .. next week can give lisan letter le then i will be free!!!! *smile* !!
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!