Ello.. recently my dad's busy preparing for the opening of his shop ..
For me, i am busy with my tests, my studies and trying to design some templates hehez.. well this saturday me and him goin to sentosa to watch the movie premier.. *smile* guessed it would be kinda fun.. and guessed what, in the morning i am even goin to go back to NBPS to helped to tend some fun fair stalls.. seems to be pretty busy hahaz... but i liked the feeling of being occupied with meaningful events and stuffs like that coz i will feel.. well satisfied if everything falls into place.. unless something goes wrong then i will start to panic le lorx hahaz..
Actually wanted to performed for teacher's day with my friends and to asked most of the people from out class.. but then come to think of it i gotta think of dance steps again and min they all goin for OBS soon.. no time to practise.. that time racial harmony and all these we spent a week or so but now we do not have enough time to make it for the audition bahz so i guessed i'll just dropped the idea le ...
OKay.. so yesterday i went to zhen house.. and we chatted a lot of stuffs.. and we had our dinner together as well.. hehez.. thanks zhen! coz if u were to asked me to edit videos i am okay with it but when it comes to design templates and membership cards.. i got the programme but i dun really have the talent to actually really come up with something suitable bahz... but i'll learn.. because though i wanna become a video editor or sth in the media industry i still have to learn some simple techniques abt handling and editing graphics... haiz.. sems to have a long way to go but i'll try *smile*
As for today, as usual my school life is actually pretty interesting at times .. with my three buddies and ofcourse my other friends hehez.. me and xin had a great time playing with my daisy todae during lessons.. diaoz lolx.. it was kinda fun to have daisy and sugar around especially when the lesson;s boring.. now almost half of the class know SUGAR.. see he's so famous hehez.. coz sugar's so cute.. and xin loved it a lot .. i knew it.. but i will not give it to her hahaz.. coz is my lao ba give de ( jasper)... actually is i like the dog a lot la coz the fur beri nice to touch wahaha
today i had remedial to five plus coz of the chemistry ... haiz.. but time pass quite fast for the three hours.. we loved miss liu .. its a pity she'd to go.. but we'll miss her .. i love her teaching method because she doesn;t rush and teach for the sake of completing the syllabus .. not like mr ramesh always rush thing... but end up no one understand wth he toking abt lor.. for miss liu she makes sure we understand EVERYTHING.. love you miss liu.. but goodluck in ur NIE... though she may not see it but just wanan wish her gdluck ..
Oh ya.. before the remedial when i was eating lunch.. he sat at the table next to mine.. i felt pretty bad to asked him to move his bag to the other side hahaz.. but who ask their bag to be so extra hahaz jkjk.. anyway he got the thingy from miss tan.. mEdiA tEcH.. for his contribution and he got a gold.. well well.. is i suggest de worx hahaz.. coz that time miss tan ask me for suggestion last yr while i was preparing for the mediatech camp then i told her abt the badge and token of appreciation thingy.. i did not realise she was serious ... lolx. he gave it to me... to keep for now i guessed... or he lazy to bring home hahaz... but thanks ...
Actually beri few people will noe my story bahz..abt times in primary school.. unhappy stuffs .. coz i only tell people i am close to.. so far i think less than 4 know bahz...hahaz.. i did not really have a beri unforgettable and meanigful childhood.. i have been through quite a lot of things.. regarding friendship.,. relationship and family matters.. ...(for that my brother will know.. somehow sth we both will not want to rake up bahz.. )...
I realised not all ppl are trustable even the one u really trust may just betray u one day.. so i actually kept a lot of things to myself... is not that i dun wanna share is that even if i say it out i think that i will not feel better and no one will be able to help so i kept quiet..
As i grow up.. when i first got into secondary school.. its a turning point for me.. coz i start afresh...
Joining mediatech is one of my unforgettable memory too.. from there i knew him and douglas... they make me feel concern and care by someone ... but the first we ended..its my fault coz that time i was too young le bah.. i think that love is just a word till it is proven..i feel that all is just nth.. so i ended.. the second is when i really start to know the meaning of being loved and to care for him, he left me just like that.. retrubution?.. i guessed so....
They say if one day you went to a beautiful place and you felt it was so beautiful.. it was so nice.. neber go back to the palce for a second time..because you may neber find the same beautiful memories of the first time ever again.. does that mean that it was wrong for me to accept him? will it be just a detour?... i dunno..
Its true that there will be a gap especially from me to him.. becoz i gave him my heart but he gave it away.. i tried to give it to someone special but it just won't work.. coz the truth is i can't even say good bye..
Mediatech leaves me with beautiful memories having a fun time playing and joking with seniors when i was in sec one.. ( still naive lolx)... we had fun times.. me and zhen with wei xiong .. dennis.. jacky... ect ect... when we do duties we were so ever hype and excited.. ( me i mean haha).. but after miss tan found out abt me and doug.. she suspected me of being a gerl with motive..to tell u the truth i was shocked but more of sad when i hear it becoz i have neber thought of using someone to get wad i want.. it was one of the reason why we were so stressed at that time.. i was beri down.. why can;t they just believe me.. do i look like such a gerl to them??... i hate them...
As times goes by .. doug knew i was unhappy abt his rank.. and he wasn;t happie with his rank and ms tan either so he gave up his position.. i thought everything was solved but it was just the beginning
We begin to quarrel .. i neber give in to him coz i always thought i was right .. like i said i know i am a little stubbon sometimes..
He found someone he admit he dun even noe at all and dun even understand at all... thats what he wrote in his compo.. but he wrote he was sad but he dun care... i guessed.. maybe its true
i dun wanna care abt the past but i comes auto to my mind..
She stolen my world.. i hated her.. do i?... i dunno but i guessed no.. i know she's more pretty and everything nice.. she's cute.. the only difference is that i am neber unfaithful... and i dun treat it as a game.. i'll neber be with someone or love someone if i dun understand him..
What goes around comes around..
For hating you i blame myself...
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!