I regretted taking hmt.. so stress..
Anyway today we went for the test and jamie almost just walk out of the class.. hahaz.. we both felt like doin that anyway lolx.. its just that jamie changed quite a lot i thought she would cry when mr liu said those sacastic stuffs in the end she was the one trying to say some .. ahem vulgaries lolx.. but anyway we both feel like slamming the door and walk out just like that .. he is so.. damn ridiculous lor.. sacastic fellow but he is quite a kind teacher thats why in the end we all stay in class lor... neber tui xue.. or else we long ago leave the class le .. wth lolx
Well well.. but though i also feel like just giving attitude to him but me myself dun like people not beng act beng.. not lian go dress up and act like lian.. thats why i will also think of how i will look if i really do that.. if i were to slam the door or wadsoeva i am as useless as them so i rather just stay for the sake of completing my o levels first... attitude probs can be settle later lolx.. thats how jamie feel too.. we pay for the exam le leh!! 58 dollars haiz.. so expensive lolx...
Today madam lim let me do a chinese test it was rather easy but jus ti wasn;t in the mood to do the paper so i took my own sweet time till i have a question i did not complete... she say take it as a practise for me or else too long neber write chinese le the brain will become rusty
As for my real hmt test todae.. it was okay bahz..
Today i got back my chemistry test papers.. i did quite well.. feel happie.. but i am scared of getting back my additional maths paper.. i dun have confidence but in any case.. wads done is done.. i can only work harder rite hehez
Today he passed me our neoprints coz got two shares .. he got one and i got the other one.. i passed him his keys too..
We did smile and talk a little to each other..
But i still feel a little awkard coz i am still not sure abt my decision
I trying to see if the week.. will my feelings swing bahz..
Sometimes.. i only have sth to say bahz.. i neber wanna look back and say how was i to know i miss you so...
Guessed the feeling of being regretful is worst than being heart broken..
Today jamie told me she dun mind abt even just being with him for a while.. a short period of time.. she also xin gan qing yuan...
Thats how i felt in the past..
Though i told me not to hug me if his mind is with someone else when we broke up .. its really not fair .. to her and to me..
Sometimes i also really tired to write stories here.. i know my friends cares for me..and my buddies but so?.. there are still some people reading bloggies to tease people and ect ect.. giving negative comments.. hypocrites..hahaz well i keep using this word but its true..
My friend told me she had enough faking a smile it hurts.. i know how it feels thats wad i told her.. she dunno whether to continue to smile or to just cry when she feels like.. i just wanna say she got a choice now... in the past i am worst.. i dun have a choice .. i am working .. i gotta smile no matter how hurt it feels looking into his eyes or how sad i am seeing him doing the things to her that he did to me once before..
thinking over it now heart will still ache..
Is it coz i feel inferior?.. i guessed so..
Anywayy never mind abt these..
today after my hmt lesssons me and jamie walked from there to amk to shop a while and we went home after that.. on the way home i was thining about him and a guy i hurt before.. i know how it feels being ignored ... ect ect.. now i noe how he feels.. while i was thinking.. i realises people really dunno how to cherish things they get easily... nowadays people go for looks and being more and more realistic... unfaithful... i have seen enough around me .. friends being heart broken blah blah blah... maybe guys feels that sweet talks are so persuasive to every gerls bahz...
And i saw the guy i hurt... we just said hi to each other and walked past each other ...
Maybe the feeling he once had is the feeling i felt that time too... i guessed so
OKay.. so all in all.. today is still a happie day .. just a little incomplete without min and linh.. we hugged each other b4 they go for their OBS...
Hope they are doin fine there.. miss them hehez
So..Miss you ... from the bottom of my heart.. ..... .... ......
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!