I must say this entry mabe quite boring but i just wanna say how i really feel...
How am i supposed to feel? so much running through my mind
First you wanna be free now you say you need me.. its so had to let you in, thinking you might slam the brakes again.. the traffic in my brain;s driving me insane this is more than i can take..
You tell me that you love me first then throw your heart into reverse..
I can't keep coming back to you everytime you're in the mood to whisper sth sweet in my eyes.... its so hard to move on coz everytime i think u're gone, u showed up in my rearview mirror..
But the truth is i cannot even say goodbye
Maybe i should just give up..
I know you are beri good to me now.. you regretted what u've done.. you made a detour.. but will it just be another tragedy...
I cannot forget the days without you, i stopped moving..
Lost ...
Its been sometime.. at times i still feel like on the verge of crying.. why?.. i know i still care for you.. i still feel for you but why am i thinking allt hese things ??
I guessed i just dun wanna get hurt anymore.. the one thing i am scared of is losing hold of you.. letting go of the past will not be easy... i wanna go back to the beri beginning.. remember the times we were still shy.. and the times we joke with each other.. but i cannot
There were places we will go at midnight .. but i dunno why .. it feels so different being there .. again
You learnt to cherish i learnt it too.. but i really love you no more like the past... you stolen my world.. you changed my life.i am the one who made you feel and made you sad.. i am not sorry.. for what we did and hu we were i am neber sorry coz i am not her...
These few days i was thinking .. a lot of stuffs.. but you were neber the one there for me.. though you consoled me.. and comfort me.. but it wasn;t the time i really need you.. whenever i wished you will be right by my side.. you were neber there..
someone told me before he will always be there for me.. that is the phrase i will neber forget from him because he was always there whenever i needed help.. and whenever i am down.. he told me making me cry is like stabbing his own heart.. i know i let him down but i will neber forget the things he did for me.. but you...
Beacuse of you.. i broke my promises to myself to neber goin back to you...
Beacuse of you .. i bear with whatever they wanan say about me and you... even if they accused me for being with you just for ur rank....i even bear with whatever the managers says and whatever the others at mac says.. they say we were neber serious.. we were neber true to each other..i am just a subsitude...
Because of you i went to worked but the day i transfeered there was the day you was with her..
You know what... you told me to ignore but .. i cannot...
You said you saw the reflection of me when u was with her.. u siad u did not totally forget me.. because times even though we both knew it was not right .. but we still came down to chat.. the place we had memories..
Sometimes i wonder.. if these were true?... i really dunno when you are lying to me.. you lied .. and made excuses its not that i did not realise is that i dun wanna noe... i dun wanna admit that u lied... though its the past but its still you...
I can only say you may not be the him i knew two years ago... he is dead... he changed...the perfect him is just left in my mind from 11th sept 2005
You broke my heart that day
I hated you... i really hate you!!!! is that how i feel??...
The first thing when we were back together you asked me if i still hate you.. the truth is.. i have neber hated you before..
The day of count down.. fireworks.. your eyes.. u no longer see me... you were looking at her.. with those eyes and the way you onced looked at me...
I am such a fool to be knowing that waiting for you is like waiting for rain in such a drought..useless and disappointing... and i still waited...though i was together with someone else.. i have neber liked him before... you were the only one ...
I have done stupid things just because of you.. i put down my pride just because of you... being humilated by ppl in my mac at first.. still rememeber the rider... saying things that hurt me ... and i still gotta fake a smile.. a laugh everyday when i worked... till when i was alone.. then i start to show my weaknesses.. tears..
The day comes where u fufilled my promises u did not fufill last time..
My roses.. my boat trip...
I am happy .. thanks.. but i no longer is that happy anymore..
Whenever you do something for me you used to do.. i will only remember the times i lost you..
Whenever you make a promise and vow.. i will think of times you broke your promises...
Why must you always make me feel... confused?
Why must you be the one...??
Love is just a word till it is proven..
I dun even noe when i will understand that
i only wanna say... should i end it now?...
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!