THE VERONICAS. :: UNTOUCHED. ::

I found someone to give my whole world to

Ello.. yesterday i went out with him. He wore a green shirt and looked smart lolx. He said zhen ask him wear like that if he is goin out with me todae lolx coz i think zhen know that i like guys to wear shirt hehez

I wore my new black shirt i just bought a few days ago and he said i look nice *smile* thanks

Humm we had a great time yesterday. I feel comfortable with him around me. Felt so protected, its like as though i do not need to think of anything but just dun wanna be anywhere but here at that moment.

We wanted to head for kusu island at first so we went to Clarke Quay but somehow we walked the wrong way lolx as usual. But we did walked passed somewhere familer hehez. Somewhere we walked before beri beri beri long ago. Then we were stopped by a group of people playing the game "amazing race" they need to ask for money to get to their destination. We gave them some money and in return, the lady gave us a pair of paper-folded hearts and give us her blessings lolx. The whole thing sounds so funny coz the first thing the lady said was sorrie to disturbed the two of you. Its okay you did not disturbed us so no worries lolx.

OKie next stop, we walked back to the MRT station to take the train to City hall. We bought soya bean but this time round we were clever enough to not buy the soya bean ice cream muahahahhaha.. lolx... the drink was nice hehez..We walked to the clifford harbour there. While walking, we passed by some memorable places again. I just looked at him and smile guess he should know why i smiling bahz. Hope he did not forget.

We decided to faster our pace coz the sun is goin to set le we were still not even close to kusu island.. I told him its okay if we dun get there coz beri late le but he say dun be dishearted at least must try.. we then reached the clifford harbour but the uncle say all the boat move to marina south there le.. no more boats for now also .. haiz.. felt so disappointed coz i really really feel like goin there ..

I felt like giving up le but he keep saying must at least go find the place first so next time know where to go mahz.. so we started to run to the other end of the place. Guess people will think we are crazy or sth to run so fast in the middle of the road hahaz. just like the feeling of holding tight his hand to run beri beri beri fast .. through the crowd..but as long as we were happie i dun care how people think ..well i admit i am crazy anyway so hehez..

Dun have to be cool, dun have to be smart , dun have to be tough, dun have to cute, dun need to know all the thing everytime.. i just wanan be with ya.. i like to be around you ... just the way u are and be just hu i am..

We then finally reached the esplanade there but the uncle say to board the boat to kusu, we have to go to the new opened harbour i remember is sth like the marina south harbour or sth lolx.. we then decided to rest le... tired of walking so far so we sat at one of the rocks there.. the sun already set le sobx lolx...i wanted to lie down but then scared beri dirty and this is when his bag is my saviour hahaz.. i lied on his bag and he lie beside me.. we took some pics there.. and he told me he hope that time will just freeze there though it is not possible .. but thats what i felt too.. just wanna lie there and stare into
the stareless sky thinking abt stuffs and be there foreva.. just wanna be lost in the feeling standing there .. he say the clouds looked like a bear and the bear's smiling.. as though laughing at us.. lolx.. cute.. i could see the shape too...

We stayed there for quite a while coz we were both unwilling to move hahaz.. lazy .. and just feel like staying there bahz.. dunno why tears just keep brimming in my eyes when he said those things.. like this place seems to be a memorable place for us with lots of memories happy and sad.. with sweet memories and heart broken memories.. he say he will noe where to find me someday if i am gone.. he believed i would be there.. humm i guess so coz its the place i will want to be if i am down or sth.. he say he will find me no matter what even if i hide.. i should be happie hearing those words but somehow i dunno why i tried to control my tears but they just dun listen to me arhh lolx.. i looked like a cry baby haiz.. lolx.. he say probably because i am beri xing fu bahz.. and wiped away my tears .. yewzhen!!! cry no more i tell myself

We then head for the mrt station but i heard a song related to me neh.. hahaz.. a song name " song abt jane" hahaz.. so we stopped to watch the band's performance.. it was pretty nice and i enjoyed their whole performance.. at least it wasn;t a wasted trip there lolx..

We walked passed the place onthe day of count down.. the place we all watched the fireworls.. where his heart wasn;t with me though i really hope at that time that i was her.. he took me to walked back the same route ont he day but this time it wasn;t him and her.. but me and him.. there was a memorial there and he sat there.. swore to me that he will neber leave me again.. and he shot a photo there.. sth like a promise i guess.. thanks.. i dunno what is ur difinition of foreva but it is heart warming to know at least the foreva u say include that moment..

We then moved to the shopping centre and he bought ice cream for moi.. we shared the ice cream. The person beri funny he see two person but give us one spoon only lolx.. the chocolate ice cream was beri beri beri nice yum yum hahaz.. well so i finished that and left the cookie and cream for him hahaz ( bleah)

We walked around for a while to finish the ice cream so we can board the train.. and we walked the wrong direction again hahaz

Guess thats wad always happen to us bahz.. coz we both dun have sense of direction especially me lolx..

We then looked at the board and just picked a number so we can just head for the next destination .. then we ended up choosing to go to changi air port.. we ate burger king there and went to the viewing mall.. just sat beside each other and i thought i saw a corpse there hahaz.. coz the lady was inside the air port there then she slept under a white blanket and she was wearing socks.. scare me haha .. he say probably its fate bahz .. i dunno what will happen in the future but just dun wanna think too far..

We wanted to take the train back home so we walked down he escalator.. he held my hands so tight that it hurts a little so i asked him.. why he suddenly hold so tight....

In the end the last tain is gone and we asked the man where to take the bus home so we waited a tthe bus stop for 858.. for quite long i was pretty worried if there was still any bus .. while waiting he told me he was scared.. i asked him why.. .. .. ..

We took the bus .. we sat at the back and he told me if i wanna sleep i can close my eyes and rest he will wake me up later.. humm lets see in the end hoz he was the one wo fell asleep lorx.. hahaz.. i ended up callling him to wake up .. hahaz.. guess he is also tired le.. after all the running and walking ..

He told me he regretted the past.. but there is no point regretting.. hearts broken is neber gonna mend totally.. feelings lost will not come back totally ... trust gone will not be regain so fast suddenly .. u did not ever lose me i was the one hu lost ya once..

Theres a period of time i gave up totally.. no trust.. no care..no love.. no nothing.. just a cold heart..

Now that you are back.. everything changed.. probably that is wad they call.. u will only learn how to cherish the things around you only when u lose them bahz..

Just that whatever happie memories we once had will be also be the sad memories if everything is gonna to change once more .. bu tlike i say i will not regret all the decisions i have made.. coz thats what my heart tells me.. like zhen and min say.. just follow wad my heart wants.. no matter what .. i just like to be beside you.. you can take my breath away.. there you are standing infront of me..

Six months ago when i hear the song neber be replaced and all i need.. and lost without you.. .. i will cry because i am heart broken.. my heart's torn into pieces at that moment espeically when i walk home from work.. from thompson..

But now hearing the same old songs again they only remind me that what goes around comes around but only then people will know who is true to you.. its a stage everyone will have to undergo bahz.. even for friendships.. only in times of trouble and when you are on the verge of losing something beri important in your life then you will look back and realise there willl still be someone that will be willing to be always be there for you.. its your happiness... but we always tend to see the happiness around your friends but we always forget to look around the happiness around us.. we neber will know how fortunate we are to have someone you loved and who loves you by your side..

I still remember the golden bird and silver bird story.. the silver bird flew away because the farmer forgot abt the happie moments they once had.. and neglected the bird just coz he knew of a golden bird.. in the end the farmer realise ... the golden bird and the silver bird .. was the same ...

There is one in this world for everyone.. i may be gone .. you may have left me just like that .. but one thing i know for sure my feelings have neber been gone totally.. i rememebr me telling zhen i forced myself.. not to think of you.. not to think abt her.. not to have anything to relate you.. i am running away from reality ..i found myself and ran away from my own feelings.. though it works in the end but i am the one suffering... i learnt to face my feelings and to say things and do things i want to do with you.. i missed the chance 6 mths ago.. to tell you the words i kept in my heart.. i missed the chance 6 mths ago to go to kusu island with you.. i missed the chance to cherish everything i had..

I regretted not saying out..

Sometimes we should say things kept inside your heart before you realise its too late..

I think i beri naggy today hahaz.. lao le lao le.. hahaz

Okie!! All the best to my friends..

~ I love you.. i really do... ~

~ Here without you~

~ I dun think i can look this the same~
~ Disappear~
~ I am here without you.. i think about you and i dream about you all the time~

~No it isn't clear somehow you're standing here.. i know..~
~ I hope it gets better as we go~

~ The One Thing I Am Scared Of Is Losing Hold Of You..~

Okie.. thats all..
* smile*