Hi.. just to say.. this is written just to express my feelings coz i am barely hanging on.. i kept too many things in my heart.. it may be boring .. so sry..
Yesterday night we went back to the starting point and the place we used to be. Many of my friends will know where it is. Somehow i know what promise he wanted to fufil and keep now i just dun wanna to admit coz it is juz isn't clear somehow he is standing here but I just wanna hide away. I found myself last night. I Found myself but i just wanna run away. I don't deny i still remember the memories when u talked abt them and I dun deny i still miss you at times when i pass by certain places and thought of the days you spent with me and giving up your rank and the things you did for me though like you say somethings u kept in ur heart its passive.. I cannot see what you have done for me but all i know is that you walk out of my life.. and now u wanna me back .. i asked uu last night what exactly uu treat me as... and uu told me abt the last promise on 11th november.. u say u will keep it .. but ..I already made my choice sorry.
When I am down and i needed u the most,you weren't there for me. All i know is that yesterday is gone and right now i belong to this moment to my dreams , the world without you.. I am used to my life now without you why did you have to come back.. I am not afraid of what will be facing before us the way people may think abt us .. ur parents .. my friends .. your friends but it only matters how true you are.. be true to yourself and follow your heart.. but i just want to say i am gone.. to look for someone to live for in this world but it isn't you.. no matter what happens i noe i am stubbon but i just want to be alone even if i need someone to be always be there for me. The person will not be you. Its too late.. I see the train leaving.. how did you get here? Why must you always be the one who made me feel , to made me laugh but the one who make me sad .. I always forget where i am going.. There you are waiting.. something is wrong.. its no longer the same for me.
Makes no sense to me. No it isn't clear somehow u're standing here. Something gets to me its like nothing is wrong but i just dun wanna get hurt again.. Just let me be who i am now. I love you.no more.i guess..
I stared at the stars yesterday and you're wondering what i was thinking. You asked me which promise u broke. the one thing i scared of is losing hold of you. its broken....
I love you and i'll neber let you go... its broken
You wanna be with me foreva.. its broken
Reason ... its broken
The ones you kept no longer makes me happie .. u wanted to carry out the promise on my birthday i noe what uu wanna do.. i am just acting dumb..
I can neber look at all these the same..
I am here without you.. but you'll always be in my memories .. and i promise.. you'll be in my heart but it will just be a part of.. memories.. dun make me swing my heart again.. the traffic in my brain's driving me insane.. this is more than i can take already.. I am hu i am six months ago but the only thing that i changed is the way i look at things and my heart. Its numb and cold i no longer feel anything .. wad goes around comes around.. you shld noe by now.. u wanted me to wait till the day but is not that i dun wanan wait.. its that i am afraid to wait.. have been such a fool .. i dun wanna the feeling of heartache and heart broken again.. i rather u break my heart now ... but u already did six mths ago..
Now i only noe.. only i can make myself happie.. I am leaving but u're arriving.. it will just be a detour.. just walking around in a circle.. so goodbye..
Thats all.. sry i guess many of uu will say wth.. so bored. but i just dun wanna keep what i wanan say .. sometimes if u keep things in ur heart.. it will be too late to say when u wanna say it loud..
I know i can be a little stubbon sometimes..
I thought i had all the answers , neber giving in
But since u're gone.. i noe i was wrong
All i know is that i am lost without you , I'm not goin to lie
How my ever goin to be strong without uu i need uu by my side...
If we ever say we'll neber be together and we ended up with goodbye dunno wad i'll do..
I'm lost without you
I keep trying to find my way .. I'm lost without you
I keep trying to face the day .. I'm, lost without you
If i could hold you now.. make the pain just go away
Can't stop the tears meandering down my face..
Thats the song uu left me.. thats the song i thought of when i run to amk .. when i go and return from work from thompson.. the days when i am stuggling to forget everything.. but its a new begining for me.. and so it is to uu..
All the best
~ yEw zHeN~
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!