hi .. juz now went to the air port wif zhen and my mum to send her friend off.. it isn;t a beri interesting or fun trip but me and zhen did have some serious talks and we chatted abt certain sensitive ques.. and the past.. will juz be memories no matter wad..
We took a bus hm.. on the way hm i was thinking over a lot of things.. life and my mum and.. lots more.. i neber really try to understand ppl around me .. coz like wad zhen say .. she dun even understand herself and i dun think i understand myself too..
I dun even noe if i am ever cheerful or playful or since when i became quiet and moody or .. i dunno. i really dunno
I only noe i am tired.. but i cannot stop to rest coz i got a lot things running through my head.. i dun even noe wad i am waiting for.. i dun even noe wad i am expecting in the future.. i dun even noe exactly wad i want and wad i am thinking.. juz a lot of things and questions in my mind..
Maybe i shld really take a break.. it isn;t clear but somehow i am standing here .. its like nth is wrong but i am juz .. confused.. i lost my aim in my life.. video editor? learn dance or filming or???? i dunno ..
I hope i can find a way to compromise..
OKie.. now u may be wondering its alreadi 2 am why i am not sleeping .. coz i cannot sleep.. i ate the medicine but still doesn;t get any better.. and worst my throat now is beri uncomfortable plus my running nose.. i keep blowing my nose and coughing and my alsel hurts .. arhhh.. feel like sleeping but cannot sleep in peace
I am sick.. ahhhh...
But one thing good abt being sick is my gor gor hoz hu normally dun care abt me unless sth happens.. he will help me do stuffs and help me buy food hehez.. coz no choice ma hahaz.. so its good
and my mum and dad will not shout at me too much coz they noe i onli will give the sianz face coz i cannot speak properly.. so they noe no point shouting at me so they kept quiet lolx
but the thing is i cannot smile properly lor... ppl say jokes now i also cannot laugh too widely haiz..
OKie though i cannot sleep now i will try to tuck myself into the bed to get to sleep coz trml got speech day.. the actual day.. jia you.... hahaz
Haix.. now i noe how does it feel being sleepless and sick..
Take care.. buaiz
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!