Okie.. hi dere..
Yesterday i went to the dance works..
It was quite tough to walk in the rain to the mrt station.. the wind was blowing and the rain was so heavy that i hesitated whether i wanna walk in the rain.. in the end i walked in the rain when it starts to drizzle onli.. but the wind was so irritating ( coz i was wearing my purple skirt so u noe.. ahem ) .. though nth happen but still gotta be careful hahaz.. u all muz be laughing now imagining me trying to be more "gentle" walk small steps and walk slowly lolx .. i noe i am not gentle but thats me lolx.. if one day i tok to u all in a beri gentle way sth muz be wrong wif me and i think my brother will be the first to send me to the mental hospital hoz?? lolx
Usually guys will like sweet and gentle gerls.. i am not included in that category ofcorse .. lolx i am beri chu lu i noe.. my brother keep saying i clumsy lor.. but its quite true bahz coz i always knock into stuffs and hit myself.. even accidentally injured myself.. well but anyway back to the dance work ..
After a difficult jorney i finally reach the mrt station .. so i took the train to yishun first to meet zhen and wei shen ... saw someone we dun like there ... she look unfriendly too so we also look pretty uneasy and unfriendly i guess.. zhen face also change when she saw her ..
So we took the train to clementi .. then tok bus 96 to NUS..
We thought we were lost at NUS .. but luckily we manage to find our way hehez
I was beri excited when we were in the auditorium waiting for the competition to start.. i love dancing and to watch ppl dance.. well some of u will laugh bahz coz i noe i beri fat tiao bu dong lolx...
it has been a long time since i last performed on stage... i remember i dance tarzan and jane .. with three cute guys lolx .. hou wen they all ( they hear i say them cute will kill me lolx ) ... then dance the song oops i did it again and jj songs with qun ying zhimei and even wif min they all...that period of time i was beri interested in dancing le..
In secondary one is dance jolin's songs during racial harmony day ... we got 2nd in the competition hehez.. pretty proud of it coz is i cherograph the dance steps..Then the last performance is shuo ai ni at the la vista.. but then its the past le i long time neber move my body to dance infront of ppl ..lolx say till i like handicap like that..ahem touch wood...
I really feel like learning dance but not opss de dance coz they dance is those classic and ballet type .. i prefer pop dance.. but haben got a chance to learn... jamie they all ask me how i think of dance steps when i neber learn dance.. humm for me i juz anyhow try here try there then link the moves together lor..
But noe also getting fatter onli so hardly feel like moving hahaz.. but zhen ask me NYP got dance club so have i ever consider joining it ... if i get in.. the answer is i dunno.. coz i also wanan take up filming as cca.. i no emy interest is onli in these two areas..
Yesterday saw lots of good dancers.. felt so envious that they can learn those pop dance steps wif someone to guide them lolx.. and they dance so cool man.. me and zhen was like wow... lolx..
NYP de dance not bad.. they beri flexible.. and their dance movements pretty difficult.. and they look so .. perfect on stage.. lolx
Ofcorse not forgetting our school..they dance beri nice also and their costumes beri outstanding.. they look so bright and attractive on stage..
Yesterday kelly and jun yang also went to the competition to sing a song while the judges decide the winners..
Zhuan dao le!! .. hahaz coz i get to see good dancers and superstars .. lolx
After the whole event i was damn tired.. felt like sleeping and my eyes felt so heavy.. yawn.. my leg hurts too .. wearing the high heels..
Wei shen also kept saying bad tings abt me and zhen like we wad old or wadeva..lolx then i tel him he go school then will get it from me coz todae me and zhen wear till beri "lady" so muz behave well in public place .. lolx .. so he go to school then he die liaoz.. but i was juz joking la.. wad can i do to him .. nth ..
we went to eat kfc while wei shen da bao long john to eat..
Delicious!
Then we went hm wei shen wanna send us hm ...gentlemen lol but in the end his father and mum keep calling him so we ask him go hm first la.. hahaz
But at least he did offer to send us hm coz he say so late le we two gerls beri dangerous.. anyway thanks.. we noe is not u dun wanna is u cannot in the end so need not worry we will not be angry..hehez
haiz.. so i wen thm and bathe and slept like a piggy till i woke up this morning to go to work..
I was late for 8 mins .. but better to be late than neber mahz ..
humm .. he came at 11 plus i guess .. then we tok a while then cx look at us .. coz cx like ps i think then he may feel me and duck too close or wadsoeva .. ps came later.. then duck and her work at the same station for a while.. saw them hapily cooking stuffs in the kitchen.. haben see him smile happily for a long time.. he tell e coz he beri tired but i dun think so bahz.. probably she is th eone hu can make him smile from the bottom of his heart now.. i believe so hehez..
For me now my life is back to normal at first i start to neglect my studies .. but realise if i wanna be no matter a editor or sth like that i still need a cert... the world is juz so xian shi... i am trying to catch up wif my studies now.. i really will work hard .. i will not let anyone down.. for those hu look down on me.. i will prove u wrong.. like i did before.. and for those hu encourages me when i am down.. thanks.. coz i am ok and i will show u all wad i said wasn't juz a word.. i will not make empty promises.. i promise i will not let myself cause my heart so much misery no matter is in studies or wad coz i will work hard.. i will .. trust me..
Even if i cannot.. i will try..
I will take control of my life not for anyone hu walk in my life or walk out of my life to affect my aim .. and dreams..
Even if i feel alone and wanna run away
I told diyanah i wanna quit.. she tel me to ask li san then can le..
i am determine to quit now but juz dunno how to tell li san coz i got personal reasons for quitting also.. but obviously i will use my studies as the main reason..
I cannot bear to leave there in the past .. but now the more i stay there the more unhappy and stress i find myself will become..
She stolen my world .. for a moment the world can wait.. but the next moment everything can change.. the only thing to stop myself from thinking or relating to him in anyway is to not have any common topic wif him lolx. which is mac ..
In this way will be more safe to make sure i will not swing .. and have anything to do wif him in any way .. its for his own gd and mine and ofcorse hers too.. coz she may get the wrong idea at times when we tok abt school stuffs in mac.. and that i hao bu rong yi let go that time le so better to be safe than sry..
In any case its the best to quit the job.. i next time grow up also dun wanan be mac manager so work there is actually seriously .. no use for me.. i did learn stuffs .. but also i did lost stuffs.. like my pride infront of customers ect ect.. i have my own dreams and own goals in my life that definitely have no link to mac.. i wil not learn skills of video editing filming or dancing or skills and things i am interested in.. except for trying to make customers happie.. like a clown i muz say at times.. they treat us like we are their dogs.. shout at uu for nth .. and make sacastic remarks when it wasn;t ur fault..
I juz find working in mac useless for me.. like wei xiong they all also tell me for wad work in mac now.. even if i dun wanna use my parents money.. now its not the time.. i study well and get a degree so got a gd job that definitely will be able to make my familylead a comfortable life..
Ok i go watch tv le ehe
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!