Todae isn't a beri happie day for me.. nothing abt relationships or wad so eva.. its coz of i did not did beri well for my tests nowadays.. dunno why.. i did study i swear but maybe not putting in too much effort like i did in the past bahz.. i remember when i was sec one i failed lots of test before.. i fail science i fail eng and maths ... not once somemore lolx.. but in the end i got second in the level coz of my end of yr results.. u noe why.. its coz i wanna prove ppl wrong.. they give me the kinda face i am born to fail .. hate that thats why i neber give up.. i did well in the end but when i go to sec twos.. under influence by him... he hack care his studies .. and i follow .. how stupid.. now without him i realise studies is more impt.. i neber knew i regard my studies so important till todae...
I got my tests back .. did badly i guess.. ya i cried.. at first dun wanan too i console myself .. telling myself i can do better next time .. yewzhen dun cry..
I tell myself its okay many ppl fail also its ok.. dun cry
I tell myself its coz i neber pay attention next time be more focus will do well de.. dun cry
I tell myself zhen.. be strong a lot of ppl is looking at uu dun cry.. ppl will laugh at uu i am strong i cannot cry..
But the more i console myself the more i feel like crying.. stupid rite.. waste my breath telling myself dun cry then also sobx in the end lolx..
Happie that min they all did console me .. but realise only uu urself have to find the cure to make urself happie and cheerful again..
Zhang shou passed me his tissue thanks.. hahaz.. coz he fail too but he still quite calm and console me instead thanks ! And i found out he is born the same day the same month and yr and in the same hospital with me!!.. lolx such a coincidence coz me and daphne though is on the same day and yr and mth but is in different hospital for sure.l. but i guess zhang shou mama have met my mum before bahz .. juz that they dunno their child will be in the same class in the future lolx..
Anyway i have myself to rely on.. be strong...
I juz reached hm from rehearsal .. actually i ok le but everytime i am fine i will see him ... dunno for how many times todae le.. in the past wanna see him also canot see him but now dun wanna see his face then like lao tian ye playing wif me like tat go where also see him.. canteen ..climbing staircase.. backstage even go for duty also see him.. wth...
Thats not the point wad i wanna say is actually mr goh sort of console me .. he tell me dun let this test be a step back for me.. juz practice more and work harder and i will do better .. he ask me if i am ok.. ya i am .. thanks.. i am fine really.. juz a little still .. u noe feeling down but i will recover soon .. coz that;s the yewzhen u all noe.. that crazy siao siao and damn noisy gerl hoz??? .. uu all muz be nodding ur heads now.. hahaz
I am goin to practice my maths everyday now.. maybe one or two ques a day at least beter than not doin anything.. and my chinese i will do the practices .. for chem all these juz memorise lorx..
I promised mr goh and told him one thing dunno why i juz say to him when he conole me i said " I will neber let myself fail again .." then i was like oops why i say things like tat lolx..
Additional mathematics is difficult .. its our mind concept.. i guess if i work hard nth will be impossible rite?? muz wei wo jiz you worx lolx ....
Time to complete my homework le hehez..
Love my friends and everyone around me.. they make me hold on .. and smile when i am down .. THANKS!!
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I neber wanna uu to be back in my life.. i neber wanna look for someone else to live for in this world.. not anymore.. nomore.. the clock's turning around and i am already late for reality...
Time to wake up and go back to my life.. the life i once led.. i am not cinderella.. even when the clocks strike 12 i will still be hu i am. even when the prince came .. i will not be the one hu get the happiness and live happily ever after.. i have to strive for wad i want.. i want to do well .. i want to be happy .. i juz want to go back to the past.. but there isn;t a chance ..so i wil live well now
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!