Yesterday early in the morning i woke up to go to school for the english remedial ( sianz ) ... gave miss soh my chinese results.. sobx .. not that well but its okay i will buke up..
Humm yesterday i was bored halfway through the lesson so i changed place.. ppl thought i angry wif shimin so i change my seat but relax its juz that i wanna do sth illegal hahaz.. i change to sit at the corner then i listen to mp3.. kelly clarkson ,Hillary Duff ect ect... Surprisingly no one notice it hahaz.. i beri good at acting innocent ma lolx.. jkjk.. well... even chen min (sat behind me) realises onli when i turn to her to ask her help me pick up sth lolx...
After the remedial me ,linh, lian wei went to tampines .. to meet seet and xin.. to buy min present...but when we were in the bus le then they tell us they go other places le.. we were like wth... but muz understand them la they need to be alone sometimes so we r not angry .. they tell us they will come back lata so we shopped and walk and sat down to wait for them.. they were damn long..can see lian wei de face sian sian one.. me and linh also quite frustrated.. coz we wanna go hm asap.. and buy the present coz tampines pretty sian..
In the end we from they say 5.30 come till 6 plus till 7 plus then we bought the present ect ect.. went separate ways later.. in the end still met them at the bus interchange.. so we took the same bus hm lolx..
I went to my grandma house to eat but sth beri funny happen. i cross the road from ntuc there at first then halfway i saw my ah ma so i neber cross i walk back to find my ah ma.. then when i cross the 2nd time i halfway saw madam lim.. she does not regconise me at first then she suddenly look at me and say " yewzhen??" then i said " lin lao shi ..ello..".. but i think i do look real stupid crossing the road 2 times ..
Anyway i had my dinner then went hm.. wanted to online till 12 to wish min happie birthdae... anyway todae is her birthday hehez.. " HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY FRIEND!!!" muacks hahaz.. But halfway douglas call.. coz i ask him help me check my scedule.. in the end after he tell me le he ask me if wanna come down and chat.. so i went down .. back to the starting point.. the playground.. gor gor dun blame me i did not meant to lie to go down meet girl-frenz to papa but if i tell him so late still go out wif guy he will kill me ma.. dun tell him ahz ..lolx
Anyway it was 11 plus so i was pretty tired.. we were pretty quiet at first.. but dun misunderstand.. i noe he quite depressed now so its juz trying to console him and to tok to him.. nth more than that.. so we from beri quiet become beri noisy hahaz.. we kept chatting and chatting ..like we neber have before.. coz in the past when i like him i dun dare to tell him certain things or misbehave (chu lu) infront of him .. but now i juz shoot wadeva he say if i think he say sth worng or do some funny things.. this is call natural bahz.. like good friends chatting..
he told me lots of things.. then he rake up me and him de past.. tell me things he did and things i did.. things we did.. and things between us when we broke up.. why he ignore me why i ignore him..ect ect.. i told him abt mine past too.. and how i am living now.. then i console him abt her.. she fall for someone else.. is this retribution..? but i am not happie after they break.. dun even have any special feelings..
We talked about last time in mediatech how things are.. i gastric pain he come and an wei me but in the beri qian zou way !! lolx... he say " you okay anot.. will not die hoz?? If will die i help u buy medicine lor see i so good.. " .. yeah yeah as if he's really that good.. in the end i also neber see him buy medicine sia.. but i noe he is concern abt me.. realises from long ago we alreadi like each other .. from the sungei buloh trip.. the video editing course.. he used a beri stupid way to get close to me felt like slapping him when he tell me but its the past la so hear hear jiu hao le..
We tok abt the time me and zhen have to hide in the toilet then he and jun sian have to act faint during the emergency exercise.. all these things we actually on the verge of forgetting le.. but dunno why will suddenly remember.. Seriously frankly speaking.. i neber chat wif him so happily b4 when we were together.. we seems to have endless topic... but one thing i have to say is i no longer have special feelings towards him.. just like a good friend to me now.. i no longer feel shy or embarassed when he tok to me or wad.. i were like toking to a normal friend like i talk to di yao ah.jason ah, wei xiong ah.. dennis ah..ect ect..
Time flies then it suddenly from 12 le to 1.46... coz he ask me check the time.. i told him i wanna go le then he say 4 more mins lor coz 4 more mins will be 1.50 ... so he pack his stuffs then we tok abt quitting the job ah ect ect.. then i tell him i wanna go hm le so we went home separate ways...
But u noe somehow i think he is hiding his emotions.. i told him he wanna cry then cry la i dun mind.. or wanan say wad things then juz tell me lor .. ai ya this kind of things all standard one..lolx last time he say the same thing then i tell him nth nth.. act ..fake out a smile ect.. but the eyes will neber lie.. silly.. sad then dun act happie la.. treat me as good friend then tell me la.. can see he love ps a lot.. but sad case she left him..
From her blog i noe he like someone for a few yrs alreadi that definitely will not be douglas.. if her heart is with someone else dun dun be together with him.. why wanna break his heart?? treating him like a subsitute.. haiz.. hate ppl to treat someone as a subsitute.. its unfair dun u feel so.. but in any case.. its none of my buisness wad i can do as a friend is onli ask him to remain happie.. slowly feeling will fade though still will have memories...
Then i tell him the best example is me... hahaz.. really.. i once beri stupid run from thompson mac to amk mac coz i feel beri depressed.. siao siao one rite.. lolx.. but after running and after linh came back the night which i say will be the beri last time i cry for him.. i am stubbon i admit .. so i neber shed a tear for him after that day.. coz i dun cry on the outside anymore.
I once hated him coz is like the way he treat me ect ect ignore me ah then tok to me dun dare look into my eyes. avoiding me ect.. for hating him i blame myself la ok but hu ask him give me his kind of attitude.. but now me and him are back to the start when we first knew each other.. when me zhen andrea him and jun sian first work together for the video competition... its a happie ending.. at least i did not lose a friend and he did not lose me as a friend too..
So.. Juz wanna say FrIeNdS FoReVa... and dun be too unhappie le.. there is nothing u can say so juz take the hint and walk away.. the truth is she fall for someone else so u can onli walk away silently... juz protect her from the back.. no point crying over or be unhappie over someone hu belong to u noe more.. she will not give a damn if u are happie or not trust me.. coz that is how u treat me.. and how i treat someone else in the past.. so that is how she will treat u.. its juz a life cycle like i say.. he hurt her , you hurt me, she hurt you, i hurt him, he hurt her.... neber ending...
Now everythings fine for me.. happie at last coz i broke through all of my confusion.. i will believe i will find my mr right someday.. but it will not be him ofcourse.. i neber ever thought of him being wif me till i grow old seriously i neber thought of being together wif him foreva.. maybe i got foresight leh can see future coz i cannot see any future for me and him..
Guess everything's back to normal.. just a dream.. just a beautiful disaster.. i wake up le.. its time for me to go back to the life i lead .. i will go back to my studies.. chemistry maths ect ect hahaz.. time for me to be the yewzhen almost abt a yr ago.. i will still be hoping to meet the special someone but for now .. till i met him i will be hu i am again.. the naughty .. irritating..noisy.. beri beri beri nosey de yEw zHeN ... thats me.. dun u all missed the past me.. now become so quiet at times .. suddenly then will fa dai.. hahaz.. sobx u all dun miss me de then nvm lor i miss myself can la hehez..
To the old yEw zHeN " Welcome back to my life !!!"
Love ya...
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!