hi dere.. long time neber update le hehez.. coz these few days i went out wif zhen .. wif min and wif weixiong they all...
Had quite a fun time wif yan ming ,weixiong,yong zhen.. we went to a few places then play arcade and shop.. we even took neoprint lolx.. wei xiong like dunno how to laugh like that de hahaz..
Then on 10th of dec after went out wif zhen.. weixiong ask me go down.. he got things he wish to comment on me and abt his relationship stuffs.. we chated quite a while and i told him i give up le .. he like dun believe like that but juz wanna say it is true la lolx...
He also now physically and mentally beri tired.. like wad wei xiong say.. if u r always the one trying to mantain the relationship, u will feel tired and disappointed and hopless u see... so why should we keep on waiting if the person juz dun even bother to look back... even if he or she look back once or twice.. wads the point.. it seems like they dun care and dun give a damn anymore... feelings do change.. no matter how many promises u made.. trust me..
For now.. guess many ppl thought i transfer to amk coz of him .. but not really.. coz now i really lost feeling le.. dunno why .. i thought i would regret and cry for at least a few days and nights.. but i did not... onli did once on the bus after we went out wif weixiong.. wei xiong and yong zhen did not noe wad to do.. saw their expressions..lolx relax.. i am fine le hehez..
I cried coz it hurts.. not coz of both of our feelings changed but coz i dun trust guys words anymore.. coz sometimes they juz say things to make the gerl devoted to him and make her happy onli.. they realy do not mean it.. they will juz forget wad they say after a while..
It hurts coz i have many things undone ..wif him .. like goin to kusu.. watching skyhigh and chicken little ect.. but now i juz dun feel the wound anymore...
Guess is coz numb or rather i think everything juz change and is different le bahz..
Juz now talk to him for a while.. the way he sounds and the way he speaks seems so different.. i never knew .. he was like that.. but maybe coz his sis beside him bahz..
Juz feel that maybe i should really find someone better.. probably ..i will not even go find coz shun qi zi ran lolx..
I thought of regretting .. oon 11 dec .. 7th mths.. but now the feeling can say is gone completely le bahz.;.. even if i tok to him juz now.. i have no intention abt asking abt us or wad..even if i see him in the mac soon.. i will juz treat him as a friend like i do now..
u all may say i beri jue qing... so fast forget the person.. within 3 days.. but is like why hold on to sth or someone hu dun care abt u and why bother continue this hanging relationship... i need not put down my gals pride.. juz to hold on to this dying relationship... thats why i did not... lolx.. gerls also need pride... even if we give in to a certain extent le.. if the guy dun care then juz let go..
at least my stubbon can be quite useful ma.. coz i decide to forget and i did.. hehez.. for my friend is a bit difficult coz can see he love the gal a lot.. the gal happen to be my good friend somemore lolx.. sometimes i admire them.. coz he can wait so long for her.. guys change heart easily but he did not..
hope in the future can find someone hu likes me more bahz..
Juz wanna say this time round.. its really the end.. i am neber goin back to uu.. and it is not love.. maybe... its juz a replacement ... finish playing and juz ... u noe .. haiz.. i am neber goin to be lost without him .. why shed tears for someone hu will not feel it.. its useless and we both knew that.. so i juz let go .slowly and now.. completely..
Hope he still treat me as a good friend.. at least a friend that can chat .. can smile and laugh wif coz i dun liek to make ppl my enemies and i hate ppl to ignore me .. lolx...
Anyway i transfer out of thompson mac officially on 16 dec .. then my data will be wif amk by todae.. hope can work soon .. this whole week neber work so sian at hm ..
So in any case i am really fine... *smile*
~ Have a nice day! ~
~BeSt WiShEs~
Yo! I want you to know that i am a ordinary gerl but i am not just a plain jane next door. I am 18 this year. I am from the Singapore Polytechnic Media & Communications. I love to dance,host and sing I was born on 19 May 1991 I am stubbon at times but thats coz i know what i want in my life. I love Foursome and my family. I'm Jayne Toh!