Humm yesterday will be a special day.. i twill b e6 mths since we started..
I thought it will be a happy occasion but i guess.. everything juz ended..
At first in the afternoon at 5 plus i went to amk mac to grab sth to eat after work..
I was wearing my mac uniform so some of the crew there thought i am their new crew lolx...
Saw him getting sth from the store room so i tap his shoulders.. his friend guo ren was also there
I forgot to take down my name tag so his friend kept calling my name to irritate me hahaz..
His friend kept asking for my phone number just to spike him i guess.. coz he seems to noe abt us..
We were at amk mac..waiting for him to finish working.. so walked to mrt station ..
regret that i guess..
Probably coz he noe sth i should not let him noe bahz.. but i really onli like him.. juz him ...not anyone else... hope he trust me..
The whole jorney back home was like so damn quiet... beri unusual u see.. i noe sth was wrong le bahz so i ask him but he juz say he was too tired...but he was beri cheerful and rush to xia ban and nice to me before he got to noe ....after he noe and he suddenly changed..
He sent me home.. i told him to wait for me coz i wanna get sth for him ... but he juz walked away.. telling me not to follow .. "oreo"... ect.. my heart sank..
Later on u can say i a bit siao la coz i walked to some place to pass him the stuffs but the first thing he said was now there's no bus back ..kinda scolding me bahz.. he seems angry.. and i really dunno why... i didn't do anything..
He walked away ...
Now there's no bus back how u wanna me go back lolx ... so i sat on the stairs loz thinking i should walk home or take taxi or juz sit here think over wad i did wrong? ... Juz feel like sitting there and dun move and i did... i didn't expect him to come back.. he sat beside me.. looking still angry bahz..
He kept asking me to hurry up and go hm coz beri late le beri dangerous.. i was like telling if he wanna me leave him and wanna ignore me like juz now then stop making me feel he care abt me .. he say if he wanna ignore me he will juz walk away juz now and not come back and sit .. taking care of me..
We juz sat there for almost half an hour b4 we open our mouth and talk i guess.. he open my bag and took out the jelly i made and the stars... he ate all the jelly and kept the stars... then he sat closer to me this time .. comforting me.. and telling me things i never knew abt him..
I remember wei xiong told me to try understand wad duck is feeling now.. ( thanks for that advice .. i realise how his mum made him so stress and stopping us )
Found out that he lied abt the "oreo ".. actually tell u the truth.. i am scared .. coz i dunno wad he say was true wad he say was to comfort me ... he say at least now he can leave knowing someone else will take care of me and care for me even if he really leave... but do u noe i dun wanna juz anyone else... if i wanna .. i will have alreadi been gone... its the 2nd time he say other ppl r better than him..
His parents need him to finish his o levels b4 goin into a relationship... till then we can onli remain as friend and "unofficial" even if it continue..
he wanna me wait.. and he ... and wanted me to return him after his o levels..
It will be a long time till then bahz.. when i reach hm i was tired so i went to sleep.. i got work tml mahz... he msg me reminded him muz return when the time comes.. and to msg him when i got hm.. i was too tired that i dun even realise i press the msg.. but neber send.. he wanted me to reply him.. saying he very worried.. ( at night 3 plus le when we left )... scared sth happen to me.. and call me wad he usually does.. and i called him wad i usually did too.. but it will be the last time me calling him that for the time being...
I really dunno how he feel.. confused? coz i am ..
Juz now i remember him sending msg in the mrt yesterday so i ask my friend if he said anything to him.. and i realise.. why he did all these..
haiz.. stupid.. i am not one hu will change heart so easy .. morever like means like udn liek means dun like..
Anyway end of ourstory.. cannot tell u wad i owe him and more.. hehez.. ( wanna noe ah...neber ) lolx.. and i am fine now le.. juz got to wait ...
Hope his mum will not hate me this much bahz
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